Jiordan Castle, Picture This
I feel bad for the inventor of Comic Sans.
I, too, have made mistakes.
Like opening the bathroom door in a bar
to a stranger rag-dolled on the toilet,
her face closed for the night.
I, too, wanted
the impossible—to carve a hole in the floor,
retreat
into lost time. Earn someone's forgiveness,
maybe even
my own. But, instead,
I accidentally invented panic, then futility.
I wanted to forget
what I had seen, who I had been,
so I turned us both into flowers.
I invented bees
and a yellow bird to watch over us,
but it wasn't enough.
Others had already invented doom
and repetition.
I cut myself
a break, fashioned a little
more time—enough to learn
which mistakes were mine to make.
The Surrealist
Magritte is said
to have said that
everything we see
hides another thing, that
we always want to see
what is hidden
by what we see,
& in his second painting
of the lovers,
with their mouths
seemingly
pressed against
each other's through
thick white veils,
I don't know what is
meant to be hidden
from me,
except perhaps
Magritte's dead mother, who died
by drowning—
a suicide,
her body pulled
from the water,
nightgown
wrapped around
her face. I admire
Magritte's defense
& disgust—
the idea that
her death had any place
in his paintings, no,
the obscured faces,
their opaque longing,
no. He is said
to have said that
his paintings conceal
nothing, that they
evoke mystery
& that the answer
to the question
What does it mean? is
nothing, because
mystery means
nothing, because
mystery is unknowable.
Sometimes
a veil is just a veil &
sometimes a veil is
everything
we uncloak
in order to see clearly.